Like I've stated before, I am a part of a forum on twoweekwait.com on the pregnancy side of things.... recently the girls and I had been wondering out loud who would be the first of us to go into labor or have to deliver and when, as we are all into the third trimester now. The August Due Date Club had their first arrival (twins!!) last month so we were all starting to wonder... and yesterday, we got our answer!
One of the girls who was due September 1 was just above 32 weeks with twins and had her babies yesterday! They had to take her early because she had pre-eclampsia and was having trouble breathing, only to find out she had fluids in her lungs and they thought it best for mom and twinsies if they were born. No updates on how everything went yet (not that I expect to hear anything for a while!) but I sure hope/pray everything went as well as it could have for the 3 of them!
In any case, it is so surreal to know we have babies born in our DDC (due date club). We are 1/3 of the way through July and have babies born... It just makes things feel that much more real! Like I've stated before, we are pretty much ready for this little guy when he decides to come, (after 37 weeks I hope... but there's nothing wrong with my pregnancy so he should be fine making it to full term) but just the realization that it won't be but another 2 and a half months before he's here is........ overwhelming I suppose is a good word. You can do all the prepping for baby that you want, but the reality that we will have another addition to our family and another life to take care of and mold into a good person is weighing heavily on me recently.
I couldn't be more excited for Caius to join us, but I am starting to feel the anxiety of having a newborn again PLUS an older child to care for. Luckily Landon prides himself on his independence and is a very understanding/affectionate/helpful boy. I know he will help when he can with Caius and will understand if I can't give him my full attention like I used to. I am just so scared that he will feel left out and forgotten the first few weeks Caius is home while I'm finding a routine for us, and I would hate to be the one responsible for him feeling that way. It's only temporary and we will live through it, but it hurts my heart to think that he might feel that way =( Hopefully I can do my best to involve him in most things I will be doing with Caius!
Also, Alex will not have any real vacation time for when Caius does come... chances are he will be at the hospital for the delivery, but the days following in the hospital I am assuming he will be working. The day we come home he will be there to take us home, and MAYBE have the first day we are all home off of work. That is pretty much it though. It will just be Landon, Caius and myself except on weekends when he's born. I know I can do it and I know there are people I can call to help if I need it, but while I feel nervous about how things will or won't play out for us, I am also determined to make it all work by myself. I am hoping Caius is a good sleeper the first few weeks and I also pray that breastfeeding isn't as much of an issue this time around as it was with Landon. Since I will be in my own home and just my boys I have it in my head that concentrating on BFing will be much easier than it was with Landon and living in a house full of people excited to see/spend time with a new baby.
I know these thoughts/anxieties/fears are all the same with every parent as they expand from one child to two (or more!) and I know things will be fine once he gets here and I am no longer thinking about it but ACTUALLY doing it all.... but I can't help but be an average person and worry over the thoughts in the meantime. It's all part of the process I guess! =) Regardless, I am so thankful and blessed to be having another little miracle from God that we can love and nurture. There are people struggling every day to get pregnant and have just one child and may never get their miracle baby.... it is such a gift from God to know Alex and I are healthy counterparts who are able to not only have kids, but healthy, strong, spirited kids who learn and grow everyday and are loved tremendously.
Less than 12 weeks now!! I can't wait to meet my little angel =)
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