Full month without the witch

While it is nice and saves me $$ on tampons, I am quite irked by the absence of my dear aunt flo. She should have been here early this month and failed to make an appearance. It is Wednesday, November 30th at 10:20pm. I have not had a period since the 8th of October. I've had several false positives, but none that turned out real.

However, there IS hope for me! Saturday I got a positive ovulation test (FINALLY!!!) and I believe I have ovulated! No actual confirmation of this of course, but I am so confident this time. (TMI ALERT!) My boobs always get sore after I ovulate and increase in soreness up until my period starts... and they haven't been sore at ALL this cycle until Sunday evening when they started and have gotten progressively worse. So I am taking this as a good sign =)

The only thing that throws a wrench in my theory is that I have gotten negative ovulation tests Sunday, Monday AND Tuesday. Today, however, I have got nothing but positives again. Of course, if I did in fact have PCOS like I expect (see my previous post) this would completely explain having multiple LH surges with only one ovulation in my cycle.

Any way you choose to look at it, I am thrilled out of my mind because A) this cycle is OFFICALLY coming to an end, one way or another and B) I will have my answer soon... pregnant or not pregnant?? That is the question! (Although I am 99% certain this "cycle" will turn out to be negative.)

Stay tuned to find out! =)

Quickie!

Ha ha.... funny word...

Anyway, just wanted to update everyone quickly: no period yet. I had a couple more false positives on my internet cheapies, and even though I had one on a walmart cheapie test... but nope, silly me... I should have known better. Cycle day 47 today..... No more signs of the Witch coming either. Just a slighly achy ovary.

I've taken some OPK's and they've all stayed the same intensity... almost positive, but not quite. So I did some research... several things popped up but only one that fit about EVERYTHING I'm going through: PCOS. Poly-cystic ovarian syndrome. Lovely.

Not confirmed by any means, but it's a definite possibility. I will need to be seeing my Dr. soon....

If you don't know what it is, google it sometime. Google pictures of normal ovaries and a pic of a poly-cystic ovary. It's depressing.... Anyway, I'm done writing for the night. Goodnight everyone.

&$%#@!

Update from yesterday.....(warning... this might be a bit TMI but I don't care right now..)

Pee'd in a cup this morning.

Pulled out my internet cheapie, my cheapie walmart test, and a First Response test.

Got them all soaked with urine.

Waited. Waited. Waited. Watched a lil bit. Waited more.

Nothing. Absolutely F%&$ing NOTHING.

I've just been punk'd by a crappy interenet cheapie pregnancy test.

I am heartbroken. I wanted to throw my pee cup against the wall and stomp like a toddler. I wanted to cry and call off from work today. I wanted to curl into a ball and have a pity party, ignore the world for the day. I don't know what I was expecting... I have cramps that could kill, and I am just as emotional as can be right before I start my period. I KNEW better than to trust that stupid test... I KNEW better than to get my hopes up like this. I couldn't help myself. It's not our month.... definitely not our month.

I'm ready for next cycle now please...

Well, well, well...

....it is now OFFICIALLY Nov 11... 11.11.11 HAH! =) Anyway, when I got home from work tonight (well, last night now technically lol!) I took a walmart cheapie test (88 cent ones that are purple) and almost immediately.... I saw a line. Two lines. Then the second line faded to an almost invisible shadow. Hmmm...

Here's some more back story: I recalculated my ovulation date (I was curious because my Nov 7 period didn't happen and was still getting BFN's)... I actually seemed to have ovulated either Oct 30 or 31st! Sooo, that would put me at either 10-11dpo!!

Anyway, after being skeptical for a few seconds, I snapped pics of this cheapie test, looked at different angles... then  I dipped my cheapie from the internet.... I put it on my bedside table for the 5 mins I had to wait and didn't look at all (I fully expected it to be negative too) and surfed the interwebs... when I picked it up I almost gasped. In the dim light of my computer screen, I EASILY saw a second line.... plain as day. I got up quietly and retreated to the restroom with my test... closed the door, turned on the light.... second line. Right in front of me. Is this real??

It's very very very faint in the picture, but it dried MUCH darker. And pink.... 100% pink! I'm in shock. I've been having such awful cramping the last few days (and right now as I type this) and I CANNOT BELIEVE I just saw TWO PINK LINES. Holy crap!!


I'm a bit skeptical still... these pink handled pregnancy tests are a part of a bad batch that have been giving my online forum girls false positives... I won't tell anybody (except a couple girls that I know and personally share daily TTC info with) until I get an ACTUAL POSITIVE on a First Response test....

Did I mention I cannot WAIT for 7am to roll around so I can obsessively test more??? Oh my gosh guys!! I cannot believe it... did we really do it???

To be continued.... =D

N.E.G.A.T.I.V.E.

Another cycle, another big fat negative.*insert sigh here* Oh well. Aunt flow comes in two days. On to next cycle...

8 days till my birfday

...I *think* I am 8dpo right now (possibly as low as 6 though) and so far I have had cramping already and lots of BFNs. Im not hopeful for this cycle. A BFP for my birthday seemed like a wonderful present... Im still early though. Theres still hope. Maybe the cramping was implantation... Hah. We will see. If not, then I will be crampy and miserable on my birthday... Oh joy.